It’s been a long time . .

It's been almost a year since I've posted and it was hard to understand why until recently. .  . I've been dealing with the big "D" in 2018, depression. It's sad because I started the year on such a high note, I believed. The last time I wrote I left a job and living situation … Continue reading It’s been a long time . .

Typical IBD struggle . . . .

A week ago I attended onsite training at my job, total training session was 4 hours. Prior to the training, the idea of being stuck in a quiet room with people where I'm forced to be social for four hours spiked my anxiety.  Not just for the social aspect,  but the past couple of weeks … Continue reading Typical IBD struggle . . . .

I attract crazy . . .

Roommate drama is at an all time high. Crazy roommate want to leave a month early and expected us to find a replacement. Who's going to move into an apartment for one month in February?!?! Today is January 30th, and we have obviously not been able to find a replacement. Me and the other roommate tried … Continue reading I attract crazy . . .

A bad day can be really bad . .

Another busy stressful week, can't wait until this conference is over at my job, so exhausting. As a result of the stress I saw blood for the first time in months . . . sighs . . . can't sleep, felt nauseous for a few days and hard to breath one day. I think I was … Continue reading A bad day can be really bad . .

Tomorrow is the big day . . .

I have my colonoscopy tomorrow which holds my future. I should not allow this procedure to hold such power, but I really need 2016 to be different . . . I put on a good face as always but I'm tired of faking that I'm so much happier lately feeling better  . . i'm not. … Continue reading Tomorrow is the big day . . .

Anxiety . . . please go away . .

I found this awesome article on BuzzFeed titled, "What you say to someone with chronic pain, and what they hear". . It displays images of typical conversations that people with a chronic illness have with "normal" people everyday. I loved the article because I could relate, but then I thought, "why isn't it okay for me to take people … Continue reading Anxiety . . . please go away . .