You never know …

I have been living in my apartment for the past 4 months and what I’ve told many of my friends is that I wish I could just move my apartment, because my neighbors drive me crazy. Neighbors across the hall have too many visitors and smoke a lot!. And the older  woman that lives above is always moving furniture late at night and early in the morning. I’ve only spoken to her once before bumping into her today.

I walked to my door and she stopped to say hi, I felt I looked childish with a lollipop stick sticking out of my mouth, but taking it out would have been inappropriate I think lol Any way, she introduced me to her sister and I re-introduced myself, then she proceeds to apologize for all the noise she makes at night, I immediately said no worries, even though I was happy that she acknowledge it and apologized. She then told me  she’s on dialysis and her treatment is at night and showed me her stomach where I assume she inserts the treatment. All this time I thought she was moving furniture, but I believe she was actually moving her machine. God I felt bad, and all I could say is that I’m soo sorry to hear, it then got quiet and I could see the sadness in her eyes, it broke my heart. Since I’m the type of person that hates awkward silence I ended the convo by saying it was good seeing you.

As I write this I’m getting teary eyed and just grateful that my condition is not worst. You would think as a person with a chronic illness I would immediately be more empathetic than others but its still hard seeing people being sick. I feel so silly and immature thinking all this time she was a mad old woman trying to make my life miserable. You just never know . . .

I want to give her something, or drop something at her door so she knows I’m here if she needs help. Any ideas? More than ever I feel propelled to help others who are sick, I know that feeling of loneliness.

As always I take one day at a time and remain hopeful.

You gotta laugh . . :)

I don’t know why I find this so funny, but it’s soo true! 


I have now accepted that my symptoms will always persist. 

Happy Jar

This  year I plan to be positive everyday, no matter the situation. Can’t be sad when I’m alive for another day with clothes on my back and a roof over my head.

happy jar

I found this cool idea of the “Happy Jar” where you write something good that happens each day for a year, and at the end of year you get to read all the good things in your life for the past year. I kind of wished I had done a happy jar in 2015, which was one of the most depressing years of my life. I might have been in better moods if I had forced myself to sit down everyday and write something positive about the day.

The first week of January 2016 was hard, very stressful at the job and glad its over. But positive things from this week has been; re-connecting with friends I haven’t seen in a while, and I just paid a security deposit on my first place, no roomies! It’s a great feeling.  With this new place I will be moving to a new state (but not really far away) and area where I know no one. I’m officially starting a new chapter, it’s exciting.

Also, I bought some powerball lottery tickets, hopefully my good luck lately doesn’t run out too soon 😉

Remaining hopeful and living one day at a time!

 

Like spinning? . . . spin for a cure!!

At spin studios throughout the US, people will be spinning for a cure on December 8th. Check out their promotional video below and click this link for more information. Please share 🙂 The more awareness and money that is raised, the closer we are to finding a cure!!

I’m surprised I just found out about this event even when I’m a CCFA member . .  smh . . there really needs to be more publicity for Crohn’s an Colitis in the US. .