Glad February is over!!!

I have been dreading February 2016 for the past 6 months. It was the month of my first big conference at the new job. ( I guess I did well since I’m still employed). Also, I had to move because my lease ended this month. So as you can imagine stress was at an all time high. And when you’re highly stressed and have IBD, what can happen?!?! A Flare-Up!! You are correct! Remission has been gone for the past month, and I’m being irresponsible because I have not told my GI. . . I don’t know what I’m doing and why I like to play games with my health, but I don’t have any leave and I just moved to 1 bedroom apartment, I’m broke lol And I can’t afford any new medical expenses. I haven’t been to the dentist in almost year, because i’m scared of what they might find and how much it’s going to cost me.  Ever since I have been diagnosed with IBD, I have a genuine fear of all doctors.  After spending last year in and out of doctor offices and my first hospital stay, i’m trying my best to avoid all white walled rooms. Thank goodness my walls are grey at the new place. . . sighs.

The bleeding appeared again about a month ago, shortly after I weaned off the prednisone. And during my stress peak it looked like I was on my period, bright red.  Now the blood is not as much, so maybe I’m getting better? . . . Either way I should still inform my GI ? . . . sighs   . .

People are starting to worry about me at the job. Especially now that I have had a cold for almost a week now. It’s getting harder to keep my illness a secret . . .

As always I remain hopeful . . .

One thought on “Glad February is over!!!

  1. To remain hopeful is key. Now if I could just practice what I preach everything would be peachy, right????? Hope you feel better soon. I suffer from many chronic diseases and conditions. You just get sick and tired of hospitals, doctor’s, needles, IV’s, CT scans, on and on…………………………………..Autoimmune disease is the cause of all my other diseases and conditions. One organ after another, but they just can’t determine exactly which auto immune disease to label me with. The only word that shows up in every search of every one of my diseases is “LUPUS” I wish you the best on your journey. Take care. 🙂

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