Two steps forward . . . . ten steps back

After my brief hiatus I wish I could write about good news, unfortunately the blood is back. It’s been back for weeks and what is a temporary fix? Predisone!  Thankfully due to my personal pharmacy I have an abundance of leftover pills, more money in my pockets for now.  When I noticed the blood wasn’t going away, I sent an email to my GI who I haven’t seen in 3 months. He stated that I start taking 20mg of predisone daily and see his PA again.  . . the plan is to get an appointment first thing in the morning to avoid taking leave without pay since I’m still under a 90-day probation at the new job. It’s only been 3 weeks  . . . goodness!! I can’t make it a freaking month without seeing a doctor!!! In the email to my GI I also mentioned AGAIN how I believe the Apriso is not working since the bleeding has not stopped and he finally agreed! I’m still in shock . . . so back to square one in finding a new long term drug .

I do not remember the last time I was stress-free, this is the most relaxed I’ve been in months. There is no drama at the new job so far . . . and I have the money and energy to go shopping,clean/decorate my room, exercise, and even got a hair cut. It felt like I was starting over, but now I might have to pump the breaks . .  sighs . . . .

I’m not the most religious person, but I would really appreciate any prayers and/or positive vibes coming this way.  I was on such a “high on life” weeks ago to an all-time low at the moment.  Mood swings galore!!

Trying to remain hopeful and can only live one day at a time . . . .