Big leap of faith . .

So I got a new job. . which is the worst timing when it comes to my IBD treatment. Even though I have been having issues lately in regards to my joints, and blood sugar, I have been okay otherwise. Honestly, the bad days I have had lately I believe are a result of severe stress from my current job. I remember sitting at my desk last week saying to myself, “this place is going to put me back in the hospital” . .  Just too much going on and other team members have left, so it’s been stressful for everyone. Also, it might have been a sign for me to go when my hard-drive crashed two weeks ago and all my files from the past 2 years disappeared. . .

When you start a new job you have to survive the 90 day probation, and I am hoping I will be well enough to make it without needing to see any of my doctors. I have not revealed my illness to my new employer yet, since I’m still not officially diagnosed, and my condition is not considered severe, I plan to earn my keep/respect from colleagues before I reveal myself as the “sick girl”. I know it’s a big risk, but before I was diagnosed I  was sick for months at my job and never took off. Now that I know what is going on and what to avoid, I believe I will be fine. Everything will be okay.

I gave my notice on Friday and this past weekend was the best sleep I have had in like a year.  I do not recall the last time I have been so relaxed. Speaking to family members on the phone they said I sounded different, even happy. Which is sooo not me lol For the first time ever I am not worried when I feel like I should be? right? This job is further away so my commute is longer, and I will lose the great benefits and IBD friendly environment at my current job, but having those benefits was not enough to keep me there. Who knows what I’ll say 3-6 months from now, I might say I should have stayed, but I will not regret taking this risk. . . .

I finally see my GI next week and sent another email today via the patient portal on how I will start tapering my prednisone intake down to 20mg a day. I wonder if I will even receive a response? Either way, we will need to discuss the next steps in my treatment, he has had 2 months to figure it out hopefully I will finally get an answer. My goal for the appointment next week is to stock up on whatever meds he wants to put me on, and make it clear to him that I will not be able to see him for months, or maybe never again.  I am somewhat glad my insurance will be different at the new job, it will force me to find a new GI. . . I swear I sound like a crazy person . . . but I’m happy . . and sleeping well, which is awesome!

Remaining hopeful and taking one day at a time 🙂

5 thoughts on “Big leap of faith . .

      1. I have a theory that every little thing we do to make ourselves happier/feel better are what adds up to successful “treatment” vs. just taking medicine. It all works together… I hope you post about the new job and happiness it brings! 🙂

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  1. I have a chronic illness, and was always worried about outing myself as a sick person at a new job. Good luck with that, and with tapering off the prednisone. I’ve done that too. I hope the new job works out for you in all ways.
    Joanna Charnas,
    Author, Living Well with Chronic Illness

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    1. Hi Joanna thank you for your comment! I’ll wait and see at this new job if I will reveal my illness. I just hope I will have the choice to reveal it and not the opposite. I pray that I’ll be healthy and hopefully closer to remission in the next few months.

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